CHAPTER 25 ConnorI told Whitney all about it and she was pretty happy, both because I made things official and because Rayce and I seem to have turned a corner. I’m happy too. But something is wrong. I can’t figure out what.Worrying is definitely the cause of my insomnia this time. I slept for something like two hours, then woke up in the middle of the night and haven’t been able to get back to sleep.Why do I still feel so off? I’ve made my decision, and I do think I want to stay. But ... View the Post

CHAPTER 22 ConnorThe next few weeks are filled with texting and phone calls and not enough time seeing one another. I did spend the weekend with her in San Francisco, where I got to meet her boss and coworkers, see her small but homey condo, and go to her favorite places (this girl is in love with Philly cheesesteak). Last weekend, I flew her down. I took her on the zip line, which she loved, and we had dinner with my family. Corrine’s out of school now, so she was there too. They all love ... View the Post

CHAPTER 19 ConnorWell, what can I say? It wouldn’t be the first time I’ve been “bad impulsive” and there’s no going back now. We’re both pretending we didn’t just blindly jump off a cliff together. I’m enjoying the fall enough to almost forget for real anyway.Whitney makes me feel like... I don’t know... like nothing I’ve ever felt before. The longer I’m with her, the more I feel myself sinking into her. In the back of my head, I think I might be in serious trouble because I’m already in ... View the Post

CHAPTER 16 WhitneyAs requested, Connor gave me a thorough tour. In between getting him caught up on my life—I leave out the dating part—I get to see just about everything. My favorite parts kept changing as we went along. First it was meeting the head chef of Commoners and getting a taste of the ah-mazing butternut squash soup they were making. Then it was seeing the stunning Grand Ballroom with its massive crystal chandeliers. And then it was meeting their Events Manager—Renee—and watching ... View the Post

CHAPTER 13 ConnorThe day my parents died, I was descending Mount Everest and out of cell phone range. It would be three more days before my phone picked up a signal, and I heard it ring. When I answered, Lizzy’s frantic voice said, “Oh my god, Connor!” It was the sound of painful relief and agony all mixed into one. I’d never, ever heard her voice sound like that before. It sent me into an immediate panic.“Lizzy? What’s wrong?”The sound of her hysterical crying faded, like she was pulling ... View the Post

CHAPTER 10 ConnorI wanted our last time together to be different, but thinking back on how we started, compared to the insane way we finished, I can see anything else would’ve torn my heart out.It’s six in the morning. Whitney’s already scheduled a cab pick-up and is in the bathroom, getting ready to take her shower. I’ve gotten dressed—I’ll shower after she goes—and am sitting on the edge of the bed. Whitney’s impending departure is pulsing through my veins.I hear the shower water turn on. ... View the Post